actually, i am relieved na nacancel yung picnic natin, not because i don't wanna go, in fact, i was looking forward to it I found out kanina na we have apractice pala this afternoon. I am joining the NCC kasi, and kung sasama ka dun sa magpeperform sa Handog sa Freshmen, instant member ka na. :)

hopefully, matuloy yung picnic next time.

it's monday night, and parang walang confirmation na tuloy ang picnic. Are we on tomorrow?

Instead of just a short "thoughts on Toby(or Kris or Mark or Boj), maybe we can each have 3 whole pages each. (mark on Claren, Kris on Claren, Boj on Claren) I think that would be much much better. I'll formulate the initial questions and you guys can just add some questions.

And about our psuedonames: I'd really, really like it if we guys can have a webpage where claren is claren, mark is mark, boj is boj, and i'm kris.there are SO many bloggers this day on the web anyway that people would'nt really bother looking at us even if it becomes the best one out therend besides, if people actually visit our webby, most probably, they're gay anyway and they wouldn't necesarily go around manila telling everyone that we're gay. wala lang. just a thought.

Hey people. Ako pa rin yung huling nagpost? anyway, for the details regarding Outside Looking In Version 2.0, please go to http://outsidelookingin.bravepages.com

oookay. what's with the negative vibe? afraid tuloy ako.

anyway, visit the prototype of our new home: http://outsidelookingin.bravepages.com. I know, may ad sa taas, eh pati rin naman sa blogspot di ba. Bravenet lang kasi ang nag-offer ng free web hosting na may kasamang FTP. Sample pa lang yan, kasi ngayon ko pa lang aalamin yung mga tags na required ng blogger.com.

please, kung may problems kayo about the picnic, or regarding any matter/s [grammar-?], please pakiresolve naman before the picnic. I don't have a speaker na madadala, kasi the one we have eh hindi yun gagana without the subwoofer. May power outlet ba sa sunken garden? and papayagan ba naman tayo ng UP na waldasin ang kuryente nila eh ayan na nga't nagkakagulo na ang mga isko at iska dyan sa mga SB at HB na yan.

I have a few reminders about the new Outside Looking In. Basically, it's a blogger - and more. Although yung ibang stuff, eh hindi naman obligatory, para bang, if you want eh di we'll give you the opportunity to contribute. And in that line, I decided na nga pala na iabandon ang geocities webby ko. It will be hard for me to maintain too many websites, lalo pa ngayon na pumapasok na ulit ako [yehey] at nagbabalak na sumali sa sangkatutak na orgs. Anyway, eto yung mga reminders ko.

1. About the monthly CDs, I request na i-move yung Pop double CD natin for July. Hopefully, matapos na natin yung production ng CD before magpicnic, para maipamigay natin ng July 1. Kung mapapansin nyo sa prototype ng page natin, nasa upper right yung cover ng 'CD of the month'. So for one month, nandun yun, nakadisplay. And then, after one month, mapapalitan na siya [incidentally, ako yung dapat magcocomplie ng CD for July, so ngayon, for August na ako]. The title of the two-disc pop CD is 'In Pop We Trust'.

2. On the stuff page, anything goes. Anything you want to share - pictures, writings, o kung gusto nyo magtayo ng sarili nyong column i.e. reviews, features. Take note: bawal nga lang ang offensive content, meaning porn. And then, apart from that, may project din tayo [the Candy Mag suggestion] na we'll answer a series of questions. For example:

Sino ang pinakaantukin?
Athen: Toby
Toby: Me?
Brad: Toby
Tonsy: Tonsy. I mean Toby pala.

Kung may free time tayong lahat, we can go sa bahay ni Kris and then we can have a photo shoot, sana yung may mga hawak tayong boards bearing our answers. And then, may isa pang content. The column is entitled 'A Critical Mind' and it serves as an editorial box para sa website natin. Since napapanahon naman, I was thinking na ilagay ung Our Charter, Our Times for the first issue. Kung may masipag sa inyong makakapagsulat ng one-two paragraphs about their view, eh di 'yehey!' for me. Kaya ko inabandon yung sit eko kasi malamang kung lahat kayo eh ayaw na magcontribute sa content ng page, eh ako ang sasalo. Natural ako kasi yung webmaster, pero that is fine, kasi I love naman doing these things, lalo na involved pa ang friends ko. Parang mas fulfilling kesa yung nag-iisa lang ako, and kapag marami kasi, hindi ako mukhang nerd/webfreak.

3. I'm sorry. I would just like to apologize kung nakukulitan na kayo sa akin about the website and the monthly CDs. I just thought na through this, mas lalaki yung bond nating apat. And it's nice naman na we have a tradition, di ba.

4. And lastly, dahil nga ang Outside Looking In eh more than just a blogger, warn ko lang kayo na possible na hindi lang tayo ang makakavisit ng website natin. So if you want, start using your nicknames again, if you are really conscious na huwag mabuko. Regarding profiles, hindi pa ako tapos dun sa mga kailangang fields, pero be ready na with your 2-3 sentence description of your blogmates. I'll need it. And iniisip ko rin, mas maganda yata kung hindi lang puro facts, na parang bio-data. Kaya I was thinking of doing it in a paragraph form, parang magazine article, with the other basic facts as 'sidedish', pero short lang, parang write-up. Ganito na lang, I'll do my profile page, and then I'll upload it. If you like it, then gayahin nyo yung format, and then submit ninyo sa akin yung answers nyo. And then, kung ayaw nyo, just don't fill up the fields you want to keep confidential. I repeat, aside from the occasional blogging, ayaw ko na maging burden sa inyo yung pag-a-add ng content, so please, kung may violent reactions kayo, or suggestions [I am sooo open to suggestions kasi I am running out of ideas], please inform me agad. And if you think ayaw nyo ng 'more than just a blogger' na Outside Looking In, pakisabi na lang agad, para i can stop agad, di sayang efforts and maisasalba ko pa yung dati kong website.

Comment lang ako about the choice of songs. I thought puro pop lang talaga. As in bubblegum pop. So nagulat ako nung naglagay kayo ng chinese pop at popular alternative/rnb. So I might change a few songs. Hopefully, hindi ka pa nagdodownload. I'll try to pick ones na may CD na ako para hindi ka na magdownload. And yeah, I'll Be There For You by The Rembrandts is good. Kasi dapat pag nagrrefer kayo dun sa kantang yun, lalagyan nyo ng (Friends Theme) sa dulo para hindi kayo nacoconfuse.

Okay. This is my longest blog ever - ganito ako ka-dedicated sa weblog natin. Nagugutom na ako, and I still have to find out the tags for the blogger. Once you read this, please text your comments to 0920-7974228, kasi I need feedbacks ASAP. Target deadline ko kasi sana tomorrow, or monday, para by tuesday, mailaunch ko na.

And nga pala, regarding that 'kulam' thing, it should have been considered an 'unwritten law'. If you are friends with someone, and you intend to keep that friendship for a long time, dapat off-limits ang witchcraft within the circle of friends. Pero I'm not taking sides ha, kasi as of now, wala pa akong alam talaga about the situation [lagi naman akong walang alam - laging huli sa balita].

I have to go na. See you guys at the picnic.

++ kris, I think ikaw yung may access sa template ng blogger natin. I need your username and password para magalaw ko yung template.

++ to all concerned, to avoid too much published entries, you can use 'Manage Posts' and then click on 'Edit', para ma-edit yung previously published entry. Let's keep our blogger clean and happy. :)

about the candy mag suggestion: i actually, i think, suggested that. kung sino man nagtatago ng mga lumang e-mail messages ko sa inyo, pakibasa yung suggestions ko for the old Outside Looking In kasi madami yata yun. Claren might need additiional ideas.

actually, to say that i'd feel hurt is an understatement. I'd be really, really mad, actually. Yeah I know, wla akong consideration at hindi ko naiintindihan yung situation ni boj and if only i put myself in boj's position blah blah. still, he has to make time for us as we are makeing time for him. kung ayaw nya, ewan ko lang. i'd rather be friends with people who actually like to be with me and can make time for me.

by the way. ewan ko lang kung madrama at overacting lang ako pero i'd realy fell hurt if boj doesn't make it on tuesday because honestly, i don't see the fact that he's starting something on wednesday (school or work?) as reason enough for him to ditch our picnic. I mean, we did give him enough time to setup his schedule and its not as if we three aren't making time for the picnic as well. Lahat naman tayo may pasok na. Ano lang ba ang a few hours to meet up with your friends na ang tagal-tagal mo nang hindi nakikita? Ako sobrang excited ako. I don't see it as an obligation to come. Ewan ko lang sa iba.

BTW boj, what's this i hear na you actually tried na kulamin ako and that the only reason it didn't work (or did it?) was because nagkamali ka ng birthday ko. if that's the case, could you kindly explain kung anong gnawa ko kasi if i remember it clearly (and i thnk i do), ikaw yung may ginawang di maganda. Pati ba si mark kinulam mo rin?

mark: that's what i said. i didn't say you were suggesting the moffats song. sabi ko lang, yun yung kinakanta mo kagabi.

anyway, i was reading boj's posts and i notice that he mentioned KURIMAO. I take that Kurimao is Venzo. Who the hell came up with kurimao and what does it mean? And why does Boj call Venzo Kurimao?

Claren: I e-mailed you a zip containing adam's pictures. And I saw Munting Tinig already. Can't remember when. last november pa yata.

Here's the discography of the 2nd CD: (how it's arranged: Group, Kris, Claren, Mark, Boj, Kris Claren, Mark, Boj...)

Disc 1

Spice Girls - Say You'll Be There (1st Group song. kasi this was the first song we sang sa karaoke. remember?)
(Kris)Emma Bunton - Take My Breath Away
(Claren)B*Witched - Ces't La Vie
(Mark)Janet Jackson - Together Again
(Boj)Christina Aguilera - Beautiful
(Kris)N'Sync - Gone
(Claren)Paula Cole - I don't Wanna Wait
(Mark)The Corrs - I Never Really Loved You Anyway
(Boj) Madonna - I'll Remember
(Kris)Sheryl Crow - All I Wanna Do
(Claren)Shania - Man! I Feel Like A Natural Woman
(Mark)Wheatus - Teenage Dirtbag
(Boj)Gabrielle - Out of Reach
(Boj)Harlem Yu - Qing Fei De Yi (Can't Help Falling In Love)
(Kris) Penny Dai - Ni Yao De Ai (The Love You Want)
(Mark)Lara Fabian - Broken Vow
(Claren)Vic Zhou - Ai Zai Ai Ni (Love Loves You) [I couldn't find an mp3 of Marie and since this section's obviously all meteor garden-related music, i took the liberty of changing your selection. :) ]

Disc 2:
(Group) I have no idea actually. any suggestion. mark suggested i'll be there for you by the rembrandts ( but he was actually singing i'll be there for you by the moffats last night ) suggestions pls.
(Kris) Fatima Rainey - Hey
(Claren) Britney Spears - Overprotected remix [claren: meron ka bang cd nito para di na ko download?]
(Mark)Natalie Imbruglia - Torn
(Boj)Craig David - Walikng Away
(kris)Madonna - Don't Tell Me
(Claren) Des'ree - Life
(Mark)John Mayer - No such thing [yup, meron na tayo sa 1st cd pero mark insisted]
(boj)Lisa Loeb - I do
(Kris)Mariah Carey-Fantasy
(Claren)A-Teens - Can't Help Falling in Love
(Mark)Lutricia McNeal - 365 Days
(Boj)Daniel Bedigfield - If you're not the one
(Kris)Brandy - Sittin' Up In mY room
(Claren)The Corrs - What Can I Do
(Mark)Bosson - One In A Million
(Boj) Avril Lavigne - I'm With You[yan na lang boj pinalit ko sa eminem]

there. hope you like the cd and thanks for being so accomodating kagabi kahit ang kulit ko at minamadali ko kayo.

wow. bago na blogger. I like this one much, much better.

oo nga pala. since ako ang official taga-download ng mp3s for our CD (aside from our upcoming july CD; claren provided the tracks), I will be collecting 25 pesos per person.

and there's an ateneo/la salle game on august 9 yata. nood tayong 4, yep. including you boj.

how's our webby coming na pala claren? I don't really feel like doing my own webpage and /or blogger anymore so hintay ko na lang ung bagong Oustide Looking In. Gawin na lang natin yung old plan natin na it's basically a page that's divided into four sections (kris,claren, boj,mark) plus a blogger. tapos we can post pa our pictures. :) and speaking of pictures, CAMERA pala on tuesday. I have a camera if you want pero kayo muna bumili ng film (36 shots ha) tapos ambag na lang tayo sa bayad.

nakakainis. I should have taken japanese instead of spanish. kakainis. bali, i'll take na lang japanese as an elective! :)

and to make things worse, i have just rescued our old TAMAGOTCHI. I love all things japanese right now even so-5-years-ago-japanse like the tamagotchi.

by the way, yep, it's official, i have turned into one of those meteor garden freaks. I'm in LOVE with HUA CE LEI.

I'm in my gaga-over-japanese/chinese-pop-songs phase. Aside from the obligatory meteor garden/F4 songs, i've been listening to utada hikaru, the japanese britney spears. so if you don';t submit any songs for the june cd, i'll do one na lang and i'll put japanse/chinese pop songs.

bah. I am such a loser. I'm 20 years old and I'm still a sophomore and it's not like im any good at school. I'm underweigth, pangit ng hair ko, ang itim-itim ko. I'm just a 6.5 and that's because atenista ako. kung taga-UP pa rin ako, 6 lang ako out of 10. I want to be a 7. And I want to do something I can be proud of kasi kayong 3 meron ako wala. Claren writes really, really well and has the cutest layouts yet seen. Mark's an absolute achiever. And Boj can do almost anything naman, be it writing, witchcrft, public speaking. Eh ako? wala. I acn't act, can't draw, can't sing, can't write well enough, can't speak in straight english, has absolutely no imagination and creativity whatsoever. Geez. I should move to Namibia take a job na lang at the library. Kaya when you guys have good jobs na, promise to get me a job ha.

Claren: miss na kita. I'm glad to hear that you're doing well sa school. Claren, ano ba gagawin about my clothes. I have absolutely NO fashion sense. help. fashion emergency talaga. Help me mix and match please!

Mark: Ok lang yan. He doesn't deserve you anyway (and I'm not just saying this because you're my friend)

Boj: dapat tayong mag-gym. talaga. magpapayat ka, magpapataba ako. please. kahit saang gym talaga.

PICNIC ON TUESDAY!
3 pm
UP Sunken Garden

What to bring:
Blanket
Food
Witchy Stuff
Venzo Stuff
Portable Speakers? (I can bring the disc-man)

And also, I'll be needing your 4 songs na, otherwise i'll do the CD myself. kaya please. 4 pop songs. submit nyo na

also, please check this face-pic: www.face-pic.com/astigtoh ano masasabi nyo? mas cute ba sya satin?

the weatherman went bonkers. sun shines in the morning, rain falls in the afternoon. harummph. anyway, yehey, may nagblog na ulit. I was feeling a bit scared, kasi I thought ako na lang ang nagboblog. nagsearch lang ako ng what is poetry, may class pa ako ng 2:30. Ayoko ma-late.

So, kelan tayo alis?

i feel so tamad. it's monday, i have an 8.30 class, i'm still at home and it's 7.52 already! damn.

Hey, naalala ko lang. Malapit na finals ng cheerleading di ba? Let's all watch sa Araneta :)

hayyayay. Tapos na ang pilahan. Magbabayad na lang ako bukas. Although dapat regular load ako, nine units lang ako this sem [naubusan ako ng GE], and then wala pang PE. Isisingit ko sana, but I learned na closed na lahat ng STD [Street Dancing], so I decided na next sem na lang ako magPE. Pero, the good news is, classmates ko yung mga dati kong blockmates sa Anthro 133 and BS 187.

Here's my sched:
ANTHRO 133 - MTh - 2:30-4:00
BEHSCI 187 - S - 9:00-12:00
SOCIO 101 - W - 1:00 - 4:00

And then, yes, I am eager na mabuhay ang blog natin. I am currently working on a lay-out. I learned kasi na bravenet supports ftp. That means, pwedeng yung blogs natin, mag-appear dun sa sarili natin webpage. yun lang. musta na kayong lahat? :)

haha. talk about world-series level ranting. wow, kris. i didn't know you had it in you.

i was reading past entries sa blogger, and ngayon ko lang napansin to:
all of us now are finally in our 20's...
Mark, 19 pa lang ako. And this is not like when Kris insists na 15 pa lang siya ;)

anyway, nandito ako sa school, still working on my medical. May boo-boo na naman ako, so lalo pa akong natagalan. Mark, we're here for you. Hayaan mo na siya. He's not worth it. Let's have a neoprint na lang ulit, and then mock each other's faces afterwards. Bata pa naman tayo.

I'll extend the invite - again - aalis kami ni Kris ng tuesday. We're trying to make tuesday a bonding day, ,and since kakaumpisa pa lang naman ng classes, baka gusto nyo sumama. I'm not sure kung ano ang gagawin namin, and kung saan, ask kris na lang. Hopefully nabasa nyo to before pa magtuesday, kasi by then, it'll be too late. and then, there are talks of having another sunken garden picnic [and this time, hindi ako ang nagplan, and i think i'll show up this time], so if you have any ideas, please talk to kris.

eto yung post ko last 6/11/2003 pero hindi ko na post so i'm posting it now:

ooh. im so sorry ngayon lang ako nagblog. I forgot my username. :)

hmm. so here's the plan for the june CD. you guys pick 4 radio-friendly (read: sikat) POP songs. then we'll compile them together with Say You'll Be There and Everybody (the two songs we sang at the karaoke, remember?) and we have the june cd.

boj: thanks for the belated bday greeting. I didn't have load then that's why I didn't reply. i'm disappointed sa'yo. I've been trying to call you for the last two weeks but you NEVER return my calls, and you're suppose to have caller ID to remind you of who's been calling. ewan ko lang ha. You're always saying and I quote "that you guys are the only true friends i have, and i'm so thankful to have found you" but now, you seem to be to busy for us. And even when you have time to blog you can't seem to get yourself to say even a few nice words to us. All you do is type away about you and your so called life and all your imaginary problems as if you're so much better than the rest of us just because you have work and a boyfriend. And honestly, gaining a few pounds isn't really a reason to hide from us, I mean come on, as claren mentioned to me, we all have personal insecurities. I have lost 10 pounds so i basically look like a live, breathing, talking skeleton nowadays but I still go out and face my friends. I hope you realize soon that friendship need work to make it work. If you've played The Sims, you'll know that you need to spend time with your friends for them to stay your friends. But if you keep on hiding like that and acting like you've got a gherkin thrust up your backside, well, what do you think will we feel? anyway, so much about that.

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boj i'm sorry dun sa mga sinabi ko sa taas. naiinis lang talaga ako sayo dati pero ngayon, ok na ako.

nakuha ko yung copy ng neoprint natin. I demand a reshoot!

'wag yung mag-yes ka nalang for the sake of having one.'

Ito yung sinabi ni mark na medyo nakunsensya ako. :)

hey, kris. have you seen upmla's website? hindi na siya baduy. although yung sa CAS, corny pa rin.

hmm. before i forget. sino nga pala ang assigned na gumawa ng compilation cd ngayong june?

hey guys.

quick facts re: me.
- i stopped seeing the stage manager guy. the things mark said made sense, and i realized na i shouldn't settle for a guy like that.
- i was in such disarray the other week that i failed to notice it was already june 03, and probably hindi ko marerealize na june 03 na pala kung hindi nagpunta si kris sa amin [11:00 PM] saying "Birthday ko ngayon ha." Kris, again, I am truly sorry. I promise to buy a calendar that lights up when it's June 03.
- everyone in my family knows about me not going to school. it's actually a long story, and hindi na ako mageelaborate dito, kasi sabi ko nga quick facts eh, and I sitll have to go to school to see if I can still do something. I'll just upload a diary entry [that I still have to write one of these days] sa mga susunod na panahon.
- if i don't get readmitted this semester, probably i'll be stuck at home doing all the housechores, and i don't think they will allow me to go out and hang with you guys [apparently my current friends are all 'bad influence' according to my mom]. But things will ease up, siguro after a month or two, so ngayon pa lang, sinasabi ko na. Mamimiss ko kayong lahat *sniff*
- i need your opinion sa website ko. please. it's www.geocities.com/toby_mclaren. take note na hindi talaga green yung text na nag-appear na green. dapat blue yun, eh may mali akong na-upload.

good luck sa studies ninyo. don't be like me :)